This happened on the adult custom game content site, LoversLab.
I got multiple unfair warning points and suspensions because I don’t like rape mods. I posted a status that quoted the mods’ reasoning for my first suspension, which literally told me I was being punished BECAUSE I DON’T LIKE THEM. Then I was suspended a second time because of this status, which was on MY profile, not on any thread, and I was accused of “crusading” against the mods that I don’t like. I can’t even begin to describe how completely idiotic that is. For one, you can’t punish me for voicing my opinion on MY profile if it’s not harassing someone. For two, you cannot punish me FOR NOT LIKING SOMETHING. I don’t like rape. I am a normal and sane person (well, not entirely, but still). You cannot change my mind, and you cannot force me to like it. I’M SORRY. This is not how forums work. There is no rule that says, “you are required to like all mods regardless of their content.” I don’t like the drug mods either. But most of all, I was not and am not CRUSADING. If I were crusading, I’d probably try to start a petition, I’d gather up as many LoversLab users as I could find that agree with me, and we’d all be actively DOING SOMETHING. I didn’t do shit. I am allowed to complain about it when it’s not even directed at anyone. So if “crusading” means giving up, not doing anything to change things, and simply saying how horrible it is, then I’d like to know where that definition came from.
My status last time showed the message I received from a mod that said I was being punished for not liking something on the site. I wanted to show how ludicrous that was. Again, you can’t punish someone for NOT LIKING SOMETHING!! That’s like if I was with a group of people who liked onions, but I don’t like onions, so they stone me to death! It doesn’t make sense and you know it. I contacted Ashal about this, but as far as I know, nothing’s been done so far since my points have not been removed. Let me mention that I correctly reported the mod. When you click “report,” it gives you reasons for reporting it that you have to check before providing additional details (I included a screenshot). If there hadn’t been a reason that matched mine, I wouldn’t have reported it, but there was. THE VERY FIRST ONE said, “this is okay, but I want to tell a moderator about it.” After filling it out, I got warned for it. Um, okay? When I questioned this, I was told that I reported a mod, not a comment. Uh… yeah, I know, and I was able to report it because my reason was on the checklist. I was told, “The abuse of the report button comes from you reporting something you deem is wrong and that we should take it down because you don’t like it.” For one, if I’m not allowed to report it for the reason I chose, why is the option there? For two, no, I didn’t say, “you should take it down because I don’t like it.” I can’t actually access my report, so I can’t quote it, but I KNOW I didn’t say that. I’m sure I mentioned that it was indeed wrong, and it should be taken down… not because I don’t like it, because it’s WRONG. I wanted the moderators to be aware of its existence because I DID NOT KNOW THAT ZOOPHILIA WAS ALLOWED HERE. How could I know that something as vile as child pornography was allowed here? I CORRECTLY reported something using the reasons I was given as choices to check. What should’ve happened was that a moderator should’ve messaged me and said, “I’m sorry, but there is nothing we can do, as this is allowed on site.” Not. A fucking. Warning.
Second warning point was for “abusive behavior,” which I assume came about when I was asking someone on the support thread how anyone could think it was okay. I explained my feelings and was trying to understand from them what the appeal was. I was sobbing as I wrote it, and I’m trying not to cry right now. The reason I was given was this:
“You are getting a warning point that will last for a month because you don’t like something that is allowed on this site.
You will not be able to post or respond to any topic for a week.
If you don’t like a mod just skip it. If its content is not against our rules it will stay.”
That’s right, like I said before… because I don’t like it. Not because I argued about it, not because my desperate attempt to understand was mistaken for harassment, but BECAUSE I DON’T LIKE IT. After my suspension, I posted a status quoting this message, and then I said something like, “I didn’t know we’re required to like every mod. Sorry, but I’m not a sick freak,” or something. It’s been too long, I don’t remember, and it’s gone now, THEY deleted it. Then, I was given THREE warning points with this message:
“You’re given an additional warning and a month-long posting restriction for continuing your crusade against content we allow in your status update, after being repeatedly told to stop. What is and isn’t allowed in terms of content isn’t going to change. What you can and cannot say when you don’t like a type of content is also set in stone: see our site rule number 1. It’s the first one for a reason. If you cannot abide by it, feel free to delete your account. Continuing like this will result in a ban.” (Let me mention that I was not repeatedly told to stop, as it was my first status on the matter. Actually, I was not repeatedly told to stop anything, only repeatedly told I abused the report button, WHICH I DIDN’T).
Rule number one states the following:
“The biggest and most important thing of this community is that the modders come first. They are the ones who make this community worth coming to, they are the ones enabling you to even play these mods. Meaning if you don’t like the way a mod is going, don’t be a jerk about it, they can take the mod in whatever direction they want. Don’t like it? Then make your own release and put the work in yourself. Find a bug or issue that needs to be fixed? Don’t be a jerk about it and raise your concerns and feedback in a constructive manner.”
What I take from that is say…. let’s see… well, I have a problem with heterosexual incest for scientific reasons, and not because it’s taboo. However, if like… a brother and a sister are stupid enough to fuck, well… it’s not hurting either of them, is it? It’s consensual. It’s illegal in most places for a VERY good reason, but the reason has nothing to do with force. The only person it technically harms is the messed up baby they might have. So rule number one says I can’t comment on a mod with heterosexual incest couples and say like, “this is wrong, you know that they can reproduce, right? We don’t need any more fuck ups in the gene pool.” Sure, I’m thinking this, but I’m not gonna say it! Why? Because it’s not really hurting anyone.
Same with drug mods. I figured that they are allowed here, but that doesn’t mean I like them. In my head, I am shaming every single person who wants such a thing in their game because I am hardcore straight edge and for good reasons. Still, I keep my mouth shut and move on.
But rape? RAPE?! That doesn’t even come CLOSE to what I previously mentioned!! Understandably, child porn is not allowed here because it’s not just illegal, but harmful, MORALLY WRONG, and can trigger PTSD flashbacks in real people who come across it. What else falls under those reasons? Rape (zoophilia is rape). I was told this:
“You reported a MOD not a comment. On the report you stated how you think the fetish is wrong and that we the moderators should have enough common sense and take it down. We have common sense we know what is and isn’t allowed on the site. Bestiality isn’t against the sites rules.
“The foundation of this site is built upon fetishes like bestiality rape slavery vore nudity sex and so on. As long as the stuff isn’t against the sites rules like stuff dealing with children then it’s allowed on the site.
We get too many people who report files just because they don’t like a specific fetish.”
Once again, yes, I know I reported a mod, and I chose the correct reason to do so. If I’m not allowed to do that, DON’T MAKE IT AN OPTION. And yes, people with common sense would not allow these kinds of things on their site. Now… how was I supposed to know that bestiality wasn’t against the rules? I don’t see it there. I don’t see a rule that says rape is allowed. I see that CP is not. I also see rule number four:
“If you find yourself asking, ‘Should I post this questionably legal content?’ The answer is simply no.”
Funny, ain’t it? In fact, the only way I learned that human rape is allowed here was by me reporting a “forced sex” mod when I was new to this site. Actually, this story relates to another thing I was told:
“The abuse of the report button comes from you reporting something you deem is wrong and that we should take it down because you don’t like it. Bestiality mods are not against the sites rules and my warning that you got isn’t the first one you have gotten from a moderator for the same thing so you can’t try to play innocent. [person] [person] [person] and me have all given you a warning for the same thing.
Your free to message Ashal if you like.”
(I love the use of proper punctuation.) “You can’t try to play innocent.” I don’t “play” anything. Dude, I’m twenty-eight years old, what adult “plays” innocent? I AM innocent, and I’ll tell you why. The first time I reported a mod (the forced sex one), I was properly reacted to with a civil message from an admin that explained it was allowed on the site. They even said they personally don’t agree with it. I questioned them about why, but eventually, even though I still don’t understand why, it came to, “that’s just the way it is.” HOWEVER… after I reported the mod, I reported a comment for asking the creator, “can you make them scream and cry so it seems like they’re suffering more?” This comment made me want to throw up. I thought, “this is illegal,” so I clicked report on the comment. So far, I had clicked the report button ONCE on two separate things. So I got warned by the RUDEST admin here, but as you may have noticed, I’m not mentioning people by name. Anyway, he gave me a warning for “abusing the report button.” That’s when I contacted Ashal, and long story short, he agreed that the admin should not have acted that way, and my point was removed.
I had another run in with this site’s rudest admin, but I don’t remember why, probably because it was another stupid reason. He was even more rude, and at one point, he said, “I busted your ass for abusing the report button too.” I reminded him that Ashal said he was out of line, and even showed him the messages. I had to contact Ashal AGAIN to set this guy straight! So yeah, moderator who said “you can’t try to play innocent,” I HAVE gotten warning points before… and they were ruled as unjustified and REMOVED. And those other admins you mentioned were also in the wrong for warning me for this! I reported the zoophilia mod ONCE. I clicked the button ONCE. I was able to find my reason given to me BY THE SITE. I. Did. Not. Do. Anything. WRONG!!
And they said, “We get too many people who report files just because they don’t like a specific fetish.” OKAY! There you go! If you get that many people complaining about fucking RAPE, then don’t allow it!! JESUS CHRIST!! And it’s not a fetish! These are criminal urges that these monsters have, and you’re encouraging them! I’ve never been raped in reality, but upon seeing the zoophilia mod, I almost threw up. I was crying, I was SCARRED, I could not find happiness for WEEKS. After this ordeal that you people have put me through, I feel like I need therapy!
I was brutally raped in a nightmare I had once, one of the most detailed and realistic ones I’ve ever had. First let me explain that I suffer from C-PTSD (complex post traumatic stress disorder), which is a type of PTSD victims of abuse suffer from. I was only molested once in my life for a brief moment, but I was too young to understand it, and it has not scarred me. My PTSD comes from child abuse. Because of this, I have what I affectionately call “nightmare seasons.” Ask anyone who has a form of PTSD, and they can confirm that this is a regular thing. It’s where you have brutal nightmares and night terrors that occur nearly every night for weeks, sometimes months on end. They will stop for a brief period of time (a few days or weeks), and you will have normal nightmares and dreams, but then the nightmares return for another merciless round. These are nightmares that haunt you for days at a time, maybe more. They affect your mood during the day, you can’t get them out of your head, you feel physically exhausted, mentally drained, and you usually wake up drenched in cold sweat. My side of the mattress has a big pink stain where my sweat has made the pink color of our sheets run. Not only that, but my dreams are so realistic, it’s as if the me in this reality goes to bed only to shift to another me in a different reality, and then I return to my reality when SHE goes to sleep.
Anyway, I wrote a blog about it, one that took me six hours to write. It’s here if you want to read it: https://reitannaseishin.wordpress.com/2017/04/24/dreams-and-the-multiverse-theory/
This projection (person who exists in your dreams), Randy, shows up a lot. In short, this extremely violent nightmare tied together a string of other nightmares into a story (I wrote a blog about how my dreams all connect with each other too), solving a LOT of mysteries, like why I’m crippled in most of my dreams. It’s because Randy, after brutally killing my adopted child, held me on my hands and knees, pointed a gun at the back of my head, raped me, and then shot me in the spine. I FELT EVERYTHING. I always do. I ALWAYS feel pain in my dreams, and also pleasure, but this hurt. This hurt so bad, I am still not over it. It was so fucking real, when I woke up, I was confused as to where I was. I started sobbing, and my poor boyfriend was absolutely bewildered. I didn’t think that that would scar me… it wasn’t real, right? But it did. I am not saying that I now qualify as a rape victim. What I’m saying is, if a DREAM did that to me, how the fuck do you think it affects people who experience it for REAL?
Fetishes are not supposed to harm people unless all who are involved consent to it. Rape of any species is not a fetish. When I complained about it, I was bullied for it. “Land of Confusion,” anyone? One mentioned that it didn’t hurt anyone because it was just a game, that it’s ENTERTAINING if it’s fake. But you know what? It DOES hurt people. It didn’t just hurt me to see it, it fucking DESTROYED me. Even trying to ignore it, if it’s even MENTIONED, I break down. The human rape mods aren’t as bad as the zoophilia one, so you can imagine just how traumatizing it was. Would you fuck your child? Well, that’s what you’re doing to your beloved cat or dog. You’re RAPING your child. I look at my son, Jerry, who is a rat, and I don’t see someone sexy, I see someone precious that I want to protect and care for, someone to love platonically until I die, someone to cherish and respect. It’d be the same if he were a dog, cat, or even a lizard. He is my child, I adopted him, and he is EVERYTHING TO ME.
I actually did try to change things on this site. I tried contacting the company the site was bought from, and I tried bringing the case to EA. I never got an answer from the former, and I didn’t hear the conclusion from the latter. After that, I gave up trying to change it, and I ignored it like y’all wanted me to. But then you accuse me of CRUSADING just by posting a status? Am I going to get banned for posting this blog? I’m doing this because I NEED TO. I’m not trying to change your mind, if I were, I’d actually DO something! I’m not some SJW that acts like she’s gonna do something about it but doesn’t! I have very important rules that I live by. The first one is, NEVER TRUST ANYONE. Second, ALWAYS be honest. Third, hope is a waste of time, faith is a lie, and you should give up on your dreams because they never come true anyway. Are you afraid of me? You shouldn’t be, I have no power. I’d love to snap my fingers and eliminate all of the disgusting monsters on this planet, but I can’t. I am no threat to you. You guys did a lot of mental damage to me, congratulations, but seriously, what are you expecting me to do? Do you know how much I’ve had to endure during my life? Enough to know that giving up is the only option. I gave up before you gave me that second fucking suspension, in which case ALL warning points and suspensions were unjustified, unreasonable, and unfair.
I seriously hope Ashal delivers repercussions for your insubordination. Plus, how many people are reading my blogs or looking at my status anyway? One or two people?! Yup, I’m building me an army. Maybe you guys should mention in the rules that crimes such as rape are allowed. That way, instead of punishing people, and THEN telling them it’s allowed, they will already know. You can’t punish a child for drawing on the walls if you never taught it that it’s wrong.
Now leave me alone.
I got banned for posting this journal. My account was reactivated, but still, I got banned simply for speaking my mind, and the journal was removed. The only reason I still go to LoversLab is because it’s the only place that has quality adult Sims content. Otherwise I wouldn’t deal with the heavy corruption happening behind the scenes of this website. I’m sorry, but if you enjoy rape, if you consider it a fetish, if you WANT it, you are sick, you are a criminal, and you should be eradicated. I wish I ruled the world.